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The ‘A-ha’ Moment: Iam lovable just the way Iam

  There is a guy that I have been dating that I have always loved being with and gave me some awesome experiences that we shared together
After a few months of absence, he contacted me and I decided to take this opportunity to see if he would be interested in getting to know me more intimately on an emotional level.  
When I received his reply, I really wasn’t surprised but felt so hurt, rejected and humiliated. My ego was bruised, and I responded quickly to ensure that “it’s no big deal” but really I was having a mini meltdown.

I was so afraid to look back at the text but I wanted to clarify exactly what he said. I started to cry. I knew that when he wrote: ‘Iam always happy to hang out with you.’

He was acknowledging my lovability.  
“Oh my goodness…Iam lovable.” The revelation came with all its splendour and with a huge burst of tears. Tears of joy.
I knew in that moment, the “aha” moment, that he had come into my life to ignite my lovability. He has literally been the only man in years that has taken me out and enjoyed my company; and although we have been physically intimate, he has always enjoyed dating me. Enjoying my company at the movies. Having fun with watching a ball game. He took me for a ‘breath of air’ to a summer festival. He surprised me with a moonlight stroll near the lake where he liked talking with me and holding hands.


He enjoyed me. He was enjoying me. He ENJOYS me.
In that moment of awareness, i realized:

He’s a mirror reflecting to me; “I like you.” “You are fun.” I am always happy hanging out with you.” 
The whole time i wanted him to be “the love of my life” and i was blindsiding myself to the real and more important purpose of this man coming into my life, this relationship.
Immediately, I recognized that i did need this experience. I decided that I actually do want to hang out with this ‘soul’ mate of mine. I think it’s the best thing i could do for myself. Relating with him will reinforce the TRUTH:

Iam lovable just the way Iam.  
And that’s the key: BEING myself.  
WE have a good time together. So let’s just do that.

He is here to open up my lovability.

And Iam completely on board with this.
I love my life.

I love every person that comes in it, especially the ones that seem like they are hurting me when really they love me beyond infinity.

“What hurts you, blesses you. Darkness is your candle.”

I have entered a new Universe.
It’s called Antonella is loved and Antonella is very, very, lovable.

Enlightenment: the moment you KNOW you are loved and you KNOW you are lovable. 


Inspiration:  September-12-2015(15)  

You don’t find the person, you must BE everything that YOU are looking for and you attract them.

The secret, BE YOURSELF (which seems simple…but it’s a total life journey)

The real trick is to enjoy the ride…not like i used to by always repeating:
Am i there yet, Am i there yet, Am i there yet, Am i there yet, Am i there yet, …

You get the picture right?


Recently, I received a message from a guy that I was completely and utterly in love with. He ignited in me a love for myself that, at the time, I could only see through his eyes. I saw that I was perfect and how lovable I could be.

This began a journey for me to MY SELF, not my Ego, but my SOUL.

I was so happy to hear from him. It almost felt like everything between us was just a dream, but no…with him contacting me and establishing a more open connection, I felt like he IS REAL.

When we began conversing, I noticed that the dialogue was very similar, on his end, to the way we used to speak to one another. The emotional connection is still there and strong but for me it was different and I was also so much more appreciative of him.

I knew that no matter what happened between us now, it would never affect the feelings he had for me then and that he still expressed to me now.

The big difference is me. How much I have changed, grown, matured. The love for him was there, but the attraction was gone. This is so amazing to me. And even more than that, at the time we met I needed him so much to validate, accept, approve of and love me and I needed this from HIM and I didn’t want it from anyone else.  

Now, I didn’t need that anymore because I KNOW IAM LOVED, not just by him but by God, the Universe and more important than even God or the Universe, I was loved by me.

I could fall into another illusion as I did in the past. The illusion of fantasy, attachment, fear of loss, fear of rejection, but my emotions are stable, calm and my mind clear.  

I know that this guy contacting me is just a test from the Universe. Iam sure that an agreement was made between us many life time’s ago and deliberately created by me through my Higher Self to give me an opportunity to gain awareness of the change in my vibe and to break another cycle.

The truth is he loves me very much. He agreed to play this part in order for me to learn, grow and succeed. Iam grateful to him and love him so much.    

I know that loving myself and becoming more aligned with God, the Universe and my Higher Self, I succeed and will continue to have success.  

Awareness. Success. Enlightenment.

Enlightenment: succeeding to be your True Self in alignment with the Divine–God & the Universe.  

Inspiration: 11-April-2015(7)

It’s been awhile, but getting back on track…..true love.  I thought it was a childish dream, a fairy tale I wanted to come true but in my seeking this all my life, has uncovered the real meaning was so I could love myself and know that iam all I need as far as being loved…..and that my beloved is a person I can share my true, loved self……